Kevin Gates Says Fan Saved Him From Taking His Own Life

Kevin Gates is currently recognized as one of the hip-hop industry’s most promising rappers. Kevin just confessed about his attempt to suicide. Through one of the darkest parts of his existence, Kevin’s life was saved because of the fans.

Gates has long been open about his previous trauma and mental health difficulties. During a recent interview on the Big Facts podcast, the Baton Rouge rapper became even more candid. Gates spoke with Big Bank, DJ Scream, and Baby Jade about the time he planned to commit suicide in December 2020, which he had previously kept confidential.

“I’ma say something on this interview that I’ve never said before. December 10th through the 12th was the hardest for me [last] year.”

“I disabled my Instagram … See, I don’t do the, ‘Man, I’m ’bout to kill myself!’ I don’t want no attention. I was going the way of the samurai. Just smash myself because I was to the point I ain’t wanna live no more.”

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Gates threw a birthday celebration for his infant daughter, Islah, in Cabo and shared a video of him holding and rocking her, fearing it would be his “final time seeing her” before deactivating his Instagram account. The hip-hop artist admitted that he didn’t feel “celebrated” at home and that emotional anguish from his past was weighing heavily on his shoulders as he contemplated suicide.

“I wasn’t happy. As men, when you a provider and you not feeling like you being celebrated in the proper manner, you feel like you only being tolerated … when I was in the streets I used to hate going home because I feel like I wasn’t welcome there. Y’all act like I’m just doing what I’m supposed to be doing.”

“We so busy being tough and harboring all these resentment and emotions and the shit we deal with. That pressure was on top of my head. I was like, ‘Man, I quit.’”

Kevin Gates, a fitness fanatic, went to the gym for his last ever workout after putting “everything” down in a suicide letter.

“I had a raw letter that I wrote about everything. I was just saying, I don’t regret nobody I ever stepped on; if I did, your momma ain’t raise you right. I wrote about how I’ve been in love before and had my heart broken. How the first woman to ever break my heart was my mother, and the only woman to ever love me was my grandmother.

“After I did that, I went in the gym, worked out, took a shower, put all my jewelery on. I looked at myself in the mirror and said, ‘Say Dick [the nickname his grandfather gave him], it’s time to stand on that business. Ain’t no more talking.’ So I was like, ‘Yeah, let’s go get it done.’”

The Luca Brasi rapper ran across a fan. The fellow gym-goer on his way out of the gym ended up saving his life.

“White boy walked up on me — kinda big, I see him in there a lot. He said, ‘Can I approach you?’ He like, ‘Man, your music the only thing that make this crazy world make sense.’ I was like, ‘Man, the world’s a cruel place. Trust me, I know.’”

“He was like, ‘Man, I was worried about you because you had disconnected your Instagram and your Twitter. The world needs you because your music done kept me from committing suicide so many times.’ I say, ‘Listen, I swear to God, right now I’m ’bout to go push my shit off. You the only one I’m telling.’”

“You know what that dude do? He cried and he grabbed me and he said, ‘If you do that, so many people gonna take their own life ’cause you all we got.’ This show you how God work through people. I said, ‘You know what? I guess I’ll stick around a while.’ I’m still just playing, I do my little proper voice when I’m being sarcastic.”

Gates agreed to “give it three days” after hearing the fan’s impassioned speech. Kevin then drove to Puerto Rico, where his mother’s family is from, and avoided social media. Both of these things assisted him in reuniting with himself and regaining his feeling of joy.

“I ended up going to Puerto Rico and was like, ‘Man, my grandmother’s spirit everywhere. She proud of me. Anywhere I go, the streets love me, the slums love me,’” he said. “I had built it in my mind that don’t nobody fuck with me. No, the world love me! But you would get on Instagram and be like, ‘Man, don’t nobody fuck with me.’ But that’s not true!”

“When I disconnected my Instagram and stopped making comparisons to my life and other people’s highlight film, and just started living for me and really appreciating the good things about myself and love what you have and have all that you need and really engaging with myself and the world… That’s what really shook me all the way.”

“This may help somebody. If I only help one person with my story, with everything I’ve been through, then I’ve served my purpose.”

Kevin Gates revealed his traumatic and abusive background during an appearance on Mike Tyson’s Hot Boxin with the Mike Tyson podcast in July. Kevin admitted that he was sexually molested as a child and sought refuge in music as a child.

“It was an escape for me. I grew up real, real violent and real aggressive. Not because I wanted to be, but I was molested as a child. So, I had this fear of being vulnerable. I took every kind of martial arts you could take. I even boxed; I did everything.”

“I wanted to be the toughest person on earth. But writing and making music was always an escape for me. I never had the nuts to come out and say that. This is my first time saying this today.”

Kevin’s life was too demotivated for him. He was too fatigued to stay in this world any longer. Kevin had been through so much that he chose to end his life. Fortunately, he ran across one of his fans, who inspired Kevin so much that he changed his mind and flew to Puerto Rico.

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